Still startled by how much it hurts to remember that he's gone.

It's a visceral ache, felt deep in my chest, and it hurts every time I stop to think about it.

Coming to terms with the loss of someone who touched me deeply, changed the course of my life, gave me courage and comfort. I can only imagine how his family and closest friends must feel.

This is where I'd usually cheapen the sentiment with an offhand comment about being a fangirl, but tonight I just don't have it in me.

Growth, evolution, inspiration - draw what I can from your words and realize your legacy.
You haven't earned a peaceful rest.
You're still my hero.